“When Will it be Time?”

November 6, 2024

When will it be time?

For the woman to stand and not be shunned,

to hold her place, her power, her grace—

to speak and be heard, without the echo

of doubt, dismissal, or demand for more proof?

When will it be time,

for women to be enough,

to stand on our earned merit,

to not shrink beneath

the weighted gaze of those

who measure with scales skewed by our inbred misogyny?

Must we always outshine, outlast, outdo—

only to be told it still is not enough,

only to see hands scramble,

Forcing fractures in ceilings

we’ve fiercely bled for, only to merely splinter?

When will it be time?

For us to be ready?

When kindness, strength, and skill

are seen for what they are,

without the falsities,

without the disqualifications,

without the distrust,

to temper our very sense of being, to wait.

 How many times will we polish that glass,

make it gleam with lies and dismissals,

offering a sneeringly downward smile while the mirror shows—

a reflection of our choice,

our nation rotten at its core,

given the seat,

crowned an unfit leader?

 

When will it be time?

When we say no more,

when that glass ceiling falls to dust,

when truth, power, and justice

are no longer gate-kept

by fear disguised as reason,

by exclusion masked as tradition.

When will it be time?

for our “great” country to allow our voices to rise like storms

and shatter every last echo

of “wait,” “not yet,” “sit down”

until they cannot ignore

the thunder that girlhood can become.

When will it be time?


  • "Before My Voice Breaks Another"

    February 20, 2025

    I sit with words
    That are not my own,
    Let them settle,
    Let them stretch,
    Let them fill the space
    I once rushed to claim
    I once rushed to claim.

    Silence is not absence;
    It is presence unspoken,
    A pause that makes room
    For what I was too loud to hear once.

    I listen, not to answer,
    Not to shape the story in my mouth,
    But to let it exist
    Beyond my voice,
    Beyond my need to understand it
    On my terms.

    Reflection is not comfort.
    It is the slow work
    Of undoing,
    Of seeing where my presence
    Has pressed too hard,

    Where my words
    Have stood in the way.
    And so I listen.
    And so I learn.
    And So I hold my voice.

    Before it breaks another

  • "The Cost of Knowing"

    April 3, 2025

    I study the worst of us
    and then try to speak clearly.
    Try to make it make sense.
    Try to find the shape of it in sound.
    Sometimes I tell myself that studying
    sound offers a kind of distance—
    that listening is gentler than seeing.
    But sound gets under the skin.
    It bypasses logic.
    It lodges in the body.
    And when the screams come, they echo
    longer than any photograph stays.

    Each day I wake up
    and my mind returns, uninvited,
    to a trauma that is rarely mine—
    but still, it pulls me back
    before I’m even fully conscious.
    To what was done.
    To what was silenced.
    To what still echoes
    through voices I was never meant to hear
    but can no longer unheard.
    Cruelty, hate, trauma—
    it’s like a drug for me.
    Not because I want to be near it.
    Not because I crave its presence.
    I don’t want to witness suffering.
    I don’t want to repeat it.
    I don’t want to initiate these violences—

    God, no.
    I yearn, above all, to stop them.
    To name them before they spread. To listen until the silence cracks.
    But I’ve become a permanent addict to the ache of trying.
    And all I’m doing
    is trying to sober the world.
    I learn about violence
    until I can’t forget it,
    then try to fit it into a paragraph
    most will stop reading halfway through.
    Polish the sentence,
    and still, they look away.
    They say it’s too much.

    Too dark.
    As if history ever gave us
    something else to work with.
    I am tired.
    Not the poetic kind.
    Not tired like sleep can fix.
    I am tired in my bones,
    in the depths of my mind I can’t quiet.
    Tired in a way that feels permanent.
    Like I’ve crossed some line
    I can’t come back from.
    I have heard too much.
    I know too much.

    And I don’t know
    how to unknown it
    without undoing myself.
    This isn’t burnout.
    It’s erosion.
    There is no way to study this
    and come out clean,
    pure,
    whole.
    But I didn’t enter it that way either.
    I don’t know why I did.
    but a part of me ached then too.
    This is the cost of knowing.

    And yet, I still listen.

  • "Inauguration: 2025"

    So, here we are.
    Democracy bartered.
    Not stolen—but bought.
    Votes were cast,
    but money decided.
    A choice made willingly,
    funded by fear,
    sealed with indifference.

    Most of you gave it willingly.
    Grasping hands, misguided hearts.
    You chose power draped in cruelty, a rapist over a woman, prejudice over progress.
    You called it patriotism.
    You called it faith.

    You saw the cracks.
    You smelled the rot.
    And you cheered as it spread, gleefully applauding our downfall, unbothered by the weight of the ruin.

    But do you know
    what this decay will bring?
    The comforts you worship,
    you crave, you lust—
    which for most of you is a sing by your faith,
    silly me—of course,
    you can pick and choose which commands to follow and which to ignore.
    The hate you unleashed
    will turn back on you.
    And if only you had tried
    to see this nation as it is—
    a tapestry, not a mirror,
    a diversity, not a singularity—
    then maybe we could have been saved.

    MAGA hate is real.
    It screams in the crowds,
    it seethes in the flames you wave,
    its violence burns, breaks, and devours.

    This is no tragedy.
    This is a failure exposed.
    No one is coming—
    No hero. No savior.
    Especially not your messiah.

    So, today, our nation divided.
    Two points of view—
    For some, a perverse celebration: for others, a mournful funeral.
    But one thing is certain:
    We will be a unified nation.
    For what comes next
    will stifle us all.